How Writing Horror Led Marcus Kliewer To an OCD Diagnosis

After a six-year hiatus, I returned to r/NoSleep, a subreddit dedicated to internet horror stories. In a time when the entire world felt exceptionally isolated and directionless, sharing my work with that community gave me much-needed connection and purpose. 

I was several parts into a series with the unwieldy title The Man in my Basement Takes One Step Closer Every Week when I received a DM asking me if the story was about OCD. The message went on to say that the main character’s inner monologue was relatable to their own experience with OCD. 

I was honored to hear the story resonated with someone, but I remember thinking the similarities were likely just coincidental. My understanding of OCD at the time was limited at best, ignorant at worst. Most representations I’d seen of the disorder depicted it as purely an obsession with cleanliness or symmetry. The possibility of having OCD myself was little more than a distant afterthought.

But the more I started reading about OCD, particularly harm and religious OCD, the more I started to suspect those story similarities might not be coincidental after all. I spoke with counsellors and OCD specialists, and soon enough I was officially diagnosed with the disorder.  Today, my second novel, The Caretaker (a vaguely spiritual successor to the Man in Basement Reddit series), ended up as a thinly veiled metaphor for OCD and my own experience with it. I hope it resonates with those who live with OCD, and gives others a window into the exhausting, shapeshifting, and often horrific nature of the disorder.